36 suicides, zero relief—until the railroad worker drops acid legally.
Alex works for the Dutch Railways (NS) and suffers from severe PTSD, having witnessed 36 suicides on the railway. Fimme is a former drug addict and struggles with an eating disorder. Both have searched for years for relief from their psychological suffering without success. Now they are turning their hopes to psychedelic therapy. In a vulnerable quest, they are trying to regain control of their lives through this method.
Direction
Smeekes refuses to aestheticize suffering—radical restraint.
Editing
52 minutes feels earned, not compressed.
Director
Kim Smeekes
Trivia, insights & behind the scenes
The Netherlands has quietly become Europe's psychedelic therapy laboratory, with this film arriving as MDMA nears FDA approval elsewhere.
Dutch Railways reportedly loses 5-10 employees annually to suicide-related trauma; Alex's 36 witnessed deaths may be statistically typical for veteran track workers.
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